So I am leaning more towards ending things with "Will". I am so tired of it always being it on his time. I would like for it to be on my time. I don't understand how someone can just use someone and never have any guilt, maybe he does......
I'm so mentally exhausted between him, school, my family and work. I have no motivation. No motivation to walk, talk, do anything. I don't want to see anyone yet tomorrow I have to work at two jobs tomorrow. I want to call out to both but I am desperate for the money.
My future scares me more than anything. I have so many what if's. What if I don't finish school, what if I am homeless, what if I don't ever get married, what if I don't have kids, what if I am a failure. The list goes on and on and its building up so much anxiety that its not even funny.
I see all these great things happening to my friends and family then there is just me, Chloe, working my butt off, yet I don't see anything great happening. I just see bad things happening.
I know I am being negative but its the truth.
I don't know what to do. I wish that I had a crystal ball that could show me into my future that way I could have some hope.
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